you're everything i need, carly

[Natassia Tahlia Burksley]

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A smile; that was all Natassia needed. To wake up every morning and have her eyes fall upon that perfectly-aligned grin she had grown so attached to. It was all she wanted. And each day she had been away, it only became more painstakingly obvious. Her blooming acting career didn't seem to suffer much from the small bouts of gloominess Natassia would endure. Of course, that wasn't all days. Occasionally, there were days when Nat didn't want to do anything, but carried on anyway. She just needed a glimpse of that smile, in person, to feel all that better. Then there were days where Natassia would be found texting almost nonstop on the set, sometimes during scenes. It often got to the point where her co-stars would confiscate the cell phone from Nat, only returning it to her at the end of the day. But, just a few mere moments of speaking with Carly made her day.

Nat had always been fortunate, sometimes more than others. Normally, the girl would brag about it or even flaunt it, but lately, Natassia hadn't taken that route. And there wasn't a doubt in many minds as to why this came to be. It was Carly who sparked a compassionate, sensitive side of Natassia. A side that her peers seldom witnessed, but had always been there. But Carly continually exposed it with Nat never seeming to mind. And if she had, it was never vocal. In reality, Carly brought out the best in Natassia and, in Nat's mind, there wasn't another being she'd rather spend her life with. She had only been in Newport for a few hours now, of which were spent in preparation of seeing Carly. It felt almost like their first date again considering how long they had been apart. And maybe Nat could have gone without the eyeliner, or any of the makeup, but she was dying to impress Carly. Who cared if the time was inching closer to two in the morning? Nat didn't want to wait another minute to see Carly. She had no worries about what evil lurked Newport's streets at night; luck was on her side, as always.

Pressing forth, Nat held her head high while playing with the apartment's key in her hand. It felt like months since she last used it, but it was still attached to the keyring, rightfully belonging there. The jagged ridges scraped lightly at her thumb as it rubbed along it. So what if Carly would be fast asleep by now, Nat didn't mind. She would just silently walk in, get half undressed, and curl up next to her in bed. And if Carly didn't wake up then from the arms wrapped around her, well it was certain to be a peaceful morning. One where Nat could wake up and see that smile she missed. Carefully, she slipped into Carly's apartment building, heading straight to the elevator. The metal doors would give Natassia the opportunity to check her appearance, making sure nothing was out of place. Grinning at her slightly distorted reflection, Nat waited rather impatiently for the doors to open once more. She was just steps away from the apartment, already ready to walk in undetected.

As anticipated, the key she eased into the doorknob fit with perfection. A rotation to the left, Nat held her breath as she pushed the door open, staring into the dimly lit apartment. The blue tint that bounced off the far wall guided Nat farther into the apartment, almost tripping over various things littering the floor. Finally, upon peering around a corner, a small smile appeared on Natassia's face when spotting Carly asleep on the sofa. The faint blue glow that flickered across the wall was from the television left on. Turning on the overhead light, Nat leaned against the wall, staring at Carly. She looked so peaceful. Nat sighed, pushing off the wall. "Carly," she softly cooed, brushing a piece of hair out of the girl's face. Fingertips grazed against her soft skin, the feeling lingering throughout Natassia. She missed the small things. Hearing Carly's laugh, seeing the heart-warming smile, feeling the softness of the girl's skin. Even just gently combing her fingers through Carly's mess of hair, Nat missed it. Sitting on the floor in front of the couch, Nat propped herself against it, watching her fiancee. "Carly," she spoke a little louder, this time, nudging at the exposed shoulder.

Maybe she should let Carly sleep, the girl didn't seem to be in any rush to wake up. Head resting against Carly's knee, Nat continued to peer at the sleeping girl's face. "C'mon, Car," Nat quietly mumbled, reaching her hand out to push away the same piece of hair as earlier out of Carly's face again. "Carly Sophia," whimpered Nat, her impatience growing. Pouting, Nat found on of Carly's hands and tugged at it, almost pulling her off the couch.

[Carly Sophia Burksley]

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Ah how the days have become so long, so tiring, Carly was starting to give up slowly on them. It was the same routine every day for the past few weeks, it involved waking up in bed alone and going to school each day. It got boring, and it also got quite lonely after the first few days. It was like her and Nat never really got to work as a couple, though they were now engaged. That just seemed like a fast moving process, they were away from each other for over two months because of Nat's rehab then the Hollywood period came no more then a month after she returned. It was hard to keep up with, but surprisingly Carly wasn't about to let this go. Nat was everything she always wanted, and acting just happened to be her career choice, the young model would just have to learn how to deal with it. Every time she thought about how lonely she was, her eyes would drift to the ring, the beautiful and expensive looking ring on her finger. But, this didn't mean their relationship was going to hell, actually they talked every day on the phone, randomly texting throughout the day while in school or on set.

At this point in life, Nat and herself were considered the school's power couple. They were the first girl on girl couple to really tie the knot with one another, as well as they pretty much owned the school. That was mostly Nat's doing, ever since freshmen year it seemed like the blond actress had her way around here. Carly, well she was just the attractive arm candy, that's how it started out anyway. The two of them never really discussed relationship time, it never really came up in a conversation, neither of them even remembered as to when this whole thing started. Though, both of them had made drastic changes to one another, most people enjoyed pointing it out as well. From what Carly heard, Nat used to be a pretty big bitch who used girls left and right, who thought about herself and only herself. That had panicked her at the start, because she didn't want another Charlie McJoyce on her hands. But as the months went on, things started to get better and now the ring that sparkled on the young girl's finger was that of a changed person. It had become serious, it was no longer games and lies, it was now trust and hope.

Everyone always asked Carly as to why she got herself involved with Nat, a conceited bitch who never really took the effort to do things for others. She'd just tell them that no one really saw the Nat that she did, no one really saw the loving eyes and the sweet smile. That was why tomorrow was so important, after weeks of not seeing each other and after a week of getting engaged, she was so ready to see her lover once again. She was ready to hear those words 'i love you' in person again, text messages and phone calls just weren't doing it for her anymore. It was only hours away, since she fell asleep at about midnight with the television on. That wasn't rare now and days, since sleeping in her bed just made her feel like it was missing something, so the couch was her bed for the past few nights. Her dreams were filled with memories, and even if there weren't that many to go off from, they had their moments of pure bliss. Like the days they skipped school just to lay in bed together all day, though they weren't really a normal loving couple. Neither of them got up to make breakfast for each other, though Carly would compliment Nat's looks once and a while, but a conceited girl didn't need too much praise. Both of them knew that they looked good, and Nat never let anyone ever think other wise. They were the type of couple that people saw as a attractive couple, both of them had the looks and the attitudes to keep it up.

Carly tried to stay up all night, excited about her girlfriends return that very day. Though, after about two hours of watching television, her eyes slowly shut and she drifted off to sleep. It was a deep sleep after about a hour, the tv not even bothering her as the faint lights flashed on her to light up the whole room. She didn't even hear the door open, arms neatly hugging onto a pillow and her puff ball hair resting against one as well. Her eyes kept shut, and she started to dream about well... her fiancee and the night she proposed. It was like she could practically hear her voice, muttering her name like she was right next to her. The feeling of soft hands running through her hair, she lightly let a breath out that she hadn't known she had been holding in her sleep. It had to be what, two in the morning and Carly wasn't really sure what time that her fiancee would be coming back. Plus, Nat said she had a surprise, which the musician was waiting impatiently for. Feeling a tug on her hand, she almost tumbled off the couch, open one of her eyes to view the lovely blond in front of her. "Baby." She grinned lightly, rubbing the sleep from her eyes and sitting up a bit. Wait, was she still dreaming? Maybe she was just picturing all of this, dreaming it and wanting it to become true. "Natassia." She whispered, moving closer and placing her lips on the other girls. Oh, this was real alight, just the way her lips felt was so amazing. She laughed at Nat's little whining voice, she always thought the female was so adorable when she got whiney. "Natassia Tahlia, stop whining my love." She laughed, running her hands through the soft blond hair.

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[Natassia Tahlia Burksley]

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And this is how love felt. Nat wanted nothing more to just curl up next to the sleeping Carly, but found herself tugging on Carly's arm, pulling the girl from her sleep. So it wasn't the most loving of actions, yanking her fiancee awake, but Nat welcomed the warm lips against hers happily. This is what she had missed; morning kisses, Carly's smile, fingers running through her hair. Nothing compared to the subtleties of being in a loving relationship. The euphoric highs Natassia once enjoyed from drugs had nothing on Carly. It had been too long since the two had last actually been able to hold each other. Carefully, Natassia rested her head against Carly's arm, laughing ever so lightly. Her eyes flickered up toward her fiancee's after snuggling against the girl for a minute. "You love it," she remarked, a grin growing across her face.

Ah, this was the Natassia everyone had know. Many despised her attitude at times, but it was a continuous factor of Nat, even Carly was subjected to it. Though, what made their relationship different than Nat's relationships with other girls was a genuine care for one another. Never had the blond felt so strongly attached to any other being, not even when she dated males. But Carly snuck into her heart, making a permanent home. Natassia had no intentions of evicting Carly from her heart, as the sparkling diamond on Carly's finger showed. Proposing in a hotel room after a night out in town, well... it didn't scream movie screen completely. Besides, how often were there proposal scenes between two women in a film? Movies, something Natassia related to greatly, provided no guideline for the girl. The entire act was on Natassia's shoulders, she had to make it perfect herself.

"God, I've missed you," sighed Natassia, her eyes closing briefly. It was just wonderful to feel Carly's warmth once again. Her mind drifted back to that nervous night with a pleasant smile on her face. Sure, it was a little haste, getting engaged so soon, but it felt right. In fact, the idea was already instilled with Natassia's mind for some time before her movie deal. But hesitance kept the blond from actually doing so. They had only been together for seven, eight months at the most, and the majority of that time was spent apart from each other. Well, that was mostly Nat's fault, having developed a drug addiction then spending a fair amount of time within rehab. But it was the right thing to do, regain her sobriety. Then of course, they two spent a week together out of Newport where the whole proposal came into Natassia's mind. She even bought the ring during that week. Instead of just asking her on their trip, Natassia sought out the perfect moment, only to begin second guessing her decision. The overly-confident Nat every one knew was now plagued with worry. Her heart would be shattered if Carly was to say no to the proposal. Nat was never really rejected, and this wouldn't be a good place to start.

Feeling Carly's fingers soothingly comb through her hair, Natassia relaxed. She felt right at home, no longer missing an entire thing in the world. Everything she needed was in arm's reach. "Surprise," she chuckled, glancing at Carly once again, "by the way." A sense of accomplishment settled with Natassia as her heart warmed. The two of them were to be married sometime and that was all that mattered. Natassia had finally grew the courage to propose a little over a month ago when Carly came to visit her in Hollywood. She included Carly in her life, bringing her to the enclosed set where they were filming. Everyone she worked with seemed excited to finally meet the girl Natassia always spoke about. But as that evening went on, Nat felt her nerves bundle up, causing the blond to be a little jittery. Champagne and strawberries were awaiting them back in her hotel room for after their dinner out. And not far from that was the ring Natassia couldn't wait to give to Carly. "Why aren't you in bed anyways? I know this couch isn't that comfortable," Nat commented, raising an eyebrow at the girl.

[Carly Sophia Burksley]

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You know that saying, you don't know what you have until it's gone? Well, Carly had experienced that twice now with her blond actress. The first time was to rehab, it was then that the young musician realized that she really needed Nat in her life. During that time she felt like she was so alone, felt like she could really just curl up and die right there. She had resorted to cutting herself, it helped fill in the gap of pain and most of the time she felt a lot better after she did it. It was a horrible way to think, but without Nat she felt so incomplete and realized that Natassia Burksley was who she wanted to be with for the rest of her life. They had never talked about relationships before, they never even talked about much. Since about a month after Nat came back from rehab, the Hollywood gig popped up out of nowhere. It was like people really didn't want them being together, like something was so against them and so set on making them apart from each other. This time though, it was a lot different, since Carly was allowed to go visit her every now and then as well as hear her voice every night before she went to bed. And, they gave her days off like this one well the whole week to spend together. "I love you, not your whining." She laughed, smiling lightly and knowing that her face probably lit up with excitement.

Nat used to be so different, from what she heard anyway, from all the stories of how Nat was just a bitch back a few years ago. It didn't scare Carly away though, she found ways to handle that conceited nature of hers, that bitchy attitude that she was given daily. It was easy to work around it, most of the time Nat just needed a little praise and she'd stop. She was probably the only one who took the time and actually worked things out with the blond goddess, she not only praised her but would sometimes use her looks against her. Nat enjoyed Carly's looks, it was one of the reasons that she was dating her and it was easy for the young musician to taunt and tease the actress daily. It was fun to see Nat get flustered, though that was only behind closed doors, she had a different attitude in front of friends and people at school. A lot of things happened behind closed doors, not only sex but a lot of their serious talks as well. Such as after the ring was placed on her finger, they had a serious talk about if this was really what they wanted. Carly remembered laying in bed, her arms wrapped around the thin waist of the blond and legs entangled. She remembered saying that it was going to be tough, it wasn't every day that two girls got married but they promised to let everyone get used to the idea first.

They were the only two girls to have a fully working relationship in Newport, sure there were others here and there but they were the only engaged ones. As well as they were the oldest as well, both of them were turning nineteen this year and they were going to have their first holidays together. Christmas, well they were together for the last one but due to Nat's rehab, they didn't really get to celebrate it. Carly visited on Christmas day, getting looks from the actress' parents and sister. Hiding scars was tough when blood stained through the arms of your jacket, they almost tried admitting her to a hospital as well. "Stop leaving me so much." She whispered, pouting just a bit. She knew how hard it must of been for Nat to propose, she never would of thought she would go through with it. Since well, it was hard to get the conceited girl to admit just about everything, and how she proposed was probably the funniest. It was the most sudden thing, but very well planned out on Nat's part but the real question was blurted out. It caused Carly to tilt her head, and just laugh thinking it was some kind of joke until the ring was shown to her. She stared at the ring for a good minute, not only because the diamond was huge but because she didn't expect this. She had snapped back to reality in just a moment, hugging the female close and saying 'yes' over and over again.

That had probably been the first time that Carly cried out of joy, since she never really did such a thing in front of Nat. And right now, her fingers gently running through the soft blond hair was what she needed right now. One week was all she had with the actress, though she planned on going back with the female for at least another week. "You're such a dork." She laughed, shaking her head a bit. It was funny, meeting everyone that was on the set of her movie and meeting everyone who sounded so excited to meet her. It was weird, though once they said that Nat talked about her so much, she'd look to her blond fiancee and just smile. "I was trying to stay up all night, so I could answer the call when you got here." She nodded, then looked around the couch for her phone. Huh, well it was around here.... she looked down her shirt and pulled the phone out of her bra. She laughed, looking at Nat then tilted her head. "Or I was just waiting for you to carry me to bed." She nodded, though knew she was probably a bit too heavy for Nat to lift. Then again, the girl had this strange strength in bed and Carly couldn't even fight that. She raised a hand to lightly run along the female's cheek, placing one more kiss upon her lips softly. "I'm so happy you're back." She nodded quickly, no longer tired but more so excited. She didn't want to sleep away time, she had only a week with her fiancee and that wasn't a long amount of time.

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[Natassia Tahlia Burksley]

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If anything, Nat's senior year was filled with twists and turns. Surprises seemed to jump out from the middle of nowhere, giving the blond amazing opportunities to take advantage of. And of course from the list of accomplishments, there was one she dreamed of with uncertainly. God, she could remember as a small child writing a list of her life dreams. They just seemed to be coming true one by one. Soon, Nat would be done with high school and onto big and better things. Actually, she didn't have to wait for high school to be over with. She already was in a movie, which was due out sometime in June. In her mind, there was no better way to end her senior year. Her fingers gently stroked the side of Carly's face, brushing some of the brown hair away. It had been so long since Natassia had been able to do this. Feeling the smooth skin underneath her fingertips was gratifying. The tickling of Carly's hairline made Nat smile almost childishly before her fingers ventured into the forest of Carly's fluffed hair.

It was funny, her hair always seemed to look like she just woke up, but Carly actually took time and effort each day to sculpt her hair like so. It was one of the things Natassia teased her fiancee about whenever they were together. Especially in the mornings when Nat would lean again the bathroom door frame, watching Carly mess with her appearance. Just Carly's way about it seemed like a huge chaos. Then again, her own morning routine wasn't more glamorous, but the finished outcome didn't look as though she just rolled out of bed. "I'll try," Natassia spoke softly, barely audible over the lowered television volume. She hated leaving Carly, it now becoming almost a routine thing. First rehab, something Natassia decided she needed, and just recently the movie career she had blooming. The only reason she was home now is because of the pleading she went through. Luckily for a first time movie star, Natassia got a week off for her to return to Newport for her dear friend's play. Her head rested against the edge of the cushion, sighing lightly as her eyes closed. It felt wonderful to be back in Newport, just moments away from Carly's apartment. It was even better to just be there with Carly.

Feeling Carly's fingers navigate through her hair, she continued to relax. She was beginning to feel at home once again. "But I'm not making any promises," she mumbled, leaning into the grooming hand. Nat laughed lightly, hearing that Carly was staying up to know when Nat got into town. The actress wasn't due home until tomorrow, well, that was what she told Carly. She had conceived the idea of surprising her love and it seemed to be working smoothly. Though, most of her laugh was fueled by Carly's comment on being carried to bed. Nat didn't treat Carly like royalty often, but even then, carrying wasn't typically part of it. There was a slight height difference, making it more of a struggle for Natassia to carry Carly about. But there were occasions Nat would suck up the difficulty and go about it. "Maybe," Natassia whispered, beginning to open her eyes again. It didn't take long before the blond was back on her feet and ready to yank Carly off the sofa she had fallen asleep on. Instead, she kicked off her shoes before telling her fiancee to be quick. "You're lucky I'm glad to be here, you know," Nat remarked, shifting her weight between her feet. Luckily, the bedroom door had been left open, giving her more confidence in the sudden strength.

Jokingly, the blond began to narrate the brief walk from the living room to Carly's bedroom. Purposely, she'd hoist Carly up more or bump into a wall on occasion. And as best as she could, Nat would taunt the girl, often to the point of actually taking nips at the top of Carly's chest while the brunette was pinned to the wall. This time was certainly no different; her eyes beamed up to Carly's face as her grin inched closer to the exposed skin, occasionally resisting from actually lightly clenching down. Dropping the shoes on the floor, Nat stumbled a bit before finally reaching the bed, letting Carly down. Stretching, the girl pulled her shirt overhead. "Here," Nat shrugged, pulling the folded paper from her pocket. Taking a moment to glance it over, Nat toyed with her original idea. Should she really give it to Carly? She had penned the list ten years ago, maybe even longer. The frayed ages added to its age, making Nat feel slightly more vulnerable. Sure, the two had their intimate moments, when they were open with each other. They weren't often, seeing as both girls were rather reserved in those regards. It even took Natassia a great amount of effort to just to admit to Carly that she had a problem with drugs, not to mention the courage Natassia had to muster in order to propose. She hadn't felt that nervous and jittery in a long time. The scenes were set as best as they could be, but Nat felt talentless. Both times, she ended up just blurting what she had wanted to say, her words lacking tact and formal coordination. Just the way her words spurted out and her ego sometimes faltered convinced Nat that Carly was the one she wished to be with.

Carefully, she passed the note over to Carly as she shimmied the rest of her jeans off and crawling into the bed next to her. "Please don't mock me," Nat laughed a bit timidly. Pulling the blankets up, Natassia curled up, nuzzling her head into one of the pillows. She was ready to bury her face if need, anticipating Carly to teasing the girl for her decade old list of dreams. Of course the first few weren't nothing more than just childish aspirations; a magnificent tree house, even a horse. Then the greatly desired acting career that Nat wished for most nights. But what really worried the blond was maybe midway down the list, scribbled in a small script. To find love.

[Carly Sophia Burksley]

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Senior year had probably been the most adventurous thing that Carly had ever experienced, from falling in love to hurting herself, man it'd been quite the ride. Falling in love, it was something that she really never expected to happen again after Charlie, she never found anyone strong enough to own her whole heart. Of course, it was funny that she fell for a conceited actress who didn't know a thing about what love really was. But, the ring sparkling on Carly's finger proved that maybe she learned a thing or two from the brunette, or maybe just being strong made the two of them get to this point. It had gone by so fast, and who would of guessed they pushed their way through the tough times and be dating for almost a year now. Scary, the two of them lasting a year was proving something to every couple out there that had tough times, there were possible ways to push through them. Rehab, cutting, other girls had nothing on their relationship, Carly would be proud to shout that to the world. A smile came to her face as she felt Nat's hand upon her cheek, turning her head to kiss the hand that made her skin light on fire each time it was upon her. For once, her hair wasn't as crazy as it usually was, having taken a shower about a hour before she had fallen asleep. It may looked tamed, but after a night, it'd be out of control.

It was really just Carly's style that always seemed to make Nat comment, from her hair to her bra showing most of the time, she was always teased by her fiancee. The bra showing, sometimes she did it just to allow Nat's hands to come upon her, other times it was just for fashion sense. Though both of them had their perks and flaws, like how Nat would stare in the mirror for hours just smiling at herself. Of course, at times the blond wouldn't know Carly was standing there and compliment herself in the mirror, wink included. Oh, it was the best to watch, the ego was just something the grew upon Carly, at times it was just something to laugh at. The singing in the shower was another thing that caught Carly off guard, and here she thought she was the only musician in the house, though she hadn't told Nat she caught her just yet. "You have no idea how much you mean to me, and how much I miss you every time." She whispered right back, though no matter how clingy that comment sounded she had her reason. Nat left her each time and it was for long periods of time, usually Carly couldn't even visit. Rehab was one, while acting was another, though there was no way the brunette would ever stand in the way of her lover's career. It kept them apart, but there was a ring on her finger, and soon another to be placed with it.

It was so nice to just allow the soft hair navigate between her fingers, smiling softly at how Nat seemed to just relax. There were always those nice signs, just things that Nat did that caused Carly to smile and get excited. "I understand, as long as you think about me... then again I guess my pictures help you with that." She smirked, everyone had a bit of a naughty side now didn't they. Carly just happened to show it in her own fashion, well... behind closed doors, both her and Nat had a rather kinky side. The whole being carried thing had been a joke though, she was more then sure that Nat had the strength buy there would be no point in carrying her. Carly was a bit taller then Nat was, okay a lot taller then her and skinnier, but it never really caused a conflict. She raised a eyebrow at her lover's next word, watching her stand up and allowing her hand to fall onto the couch now. Funny, whenever Nat did carry her it was in different ways, there was the over the shoulder, legs wrapped around the waist, or the bridal style. Almost each one, Nat felt her up somehow, which just made for more excitement most of the time. "Ah! Nat, you really don- hell who am I kidding, onwards!" They happened to be a rather fun couple, and this was just one of their playful banters. Carly knew that Nat didn't enjoy being lifted, though there were times where she'd fall asleep on the couch and Carly would carry her to bed. Aspiring model had some muscles there too, most were created by being submissive to Nat. Though of course when Carly was carried, it was more of a chance to kiss the blond's neck teasingly or to let her hands slip in the neckline of her shirt, oh there were just so many things she could do in this position.

There were loads of times where Nat mustered up this strength and carried Carly literally all the way to their bedroom, mostly causing the brunette's back to hit walls and cause her legs to wrap around her lover's waist. Kissing was usually always involved, and usually Nat's hands always found their way to her behind or thighs, both were common. It was nice to get back into the groove of things, to feel the warm breath of the woman she loved on her skin again. Nat always knew just what to do to make her whole body go crazy, no matter if it was fireworks behind her eyes or tingling in her skin, it was always something. As they came to the room, Carly was deposited onto her feet, taking a seat on the bed and watching her fiancee undress. Oh, this was another thing she missed, seeing that wonderful body of hers. Sure, Nat wasn't the skinniest girl in the world, then again neither was Carly, so it all worked out well. She tilted her head at the piece of paper that was in her lover's hand, wondering as to what it was and why it looked so old. From the way Nat looked at it, it seemed like it was something rather important, meaningful to her. It was always hard for Nat to admit feelings, though both of them never really explained their pasts with each other nor did they really dwell upon those types of moments. Carly was happy though, that Natassia did show feeling towards her, her expression and tone wasn't always crude or witty but soft and gentle. No one, and she was very sure of this, that no one had ever seen this side of Natassia Burksley. It was love, even if Nat didn't express the words so much, there wasn't any other way to describe this. The feelings that happened between them, how they could stay together even after one went to rehab and the other was self-harming. It took real commitment to stay together though that, and Carly was just happy that she finally found someone who she could trust and trusted her back. Someone who loved her for who she was and not just because she was good in bed, or the way her body looked.

Carly put out her hand to take the paper, still confused about what this was all about. Carefully, she scooted under the covers next to her partner, placing the paper down in her lap before pulling her shirt overhead as well. What... clothes weren't really common for them, Carly didn't see the reason for a shirt anyway. She leaned her back upon the wall behind their bed, carefully taking the list into hand and looking at it. It was Nat's handwriting from what she could tell, plus the whole 'dreams' title at the top. The spelling was a bit off, but that just made it more adorable, causing a smile to come upon the brunette's face. She didn't understand fully why Nat was showing her this, but she guessed it was a link to the past that she could share. Most things were childs play, there was even a 'win a talent show' one there. Though Carly's eyes stopped on the 'To find love' portion, smiling lightly then looking at her fiancee. "Have you actually done any of this stuff on here? Are you hiding a pony from me?" She laughed, wanting to know if at least one of these were fulfilled. She knew Nat loved her, and she hoped that she was the one to be able to cross off 'to find love' on this list. Carly wanted to accomplish these things with her, or at least the ones they could together.

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[Natassia Tahlia Burksley]

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It was strange to think they only had a few months left of their senior year. High school had definitely been something remarkable for Natassia, and regardless of the lows her senior year had, Nat would openly admit it was the best. She found something she didn't even think she was looking for. Ever since her freshman year, Natassia only told one person everything and that was Rochelle. It wasn't even a matter of intimacy in that case, but Natassia just trusted her best friend with every secret. She had grown up with Rochelle, developing similar interests and passions; it wasn't a mystery that Natassia could just be honest with her best friend. But other than that, the senior kept things bottled up, seldom expressing feelings that weren't demanded by a script. And now... now she had someone who just completed her. Nat was comfortable with the fear of disappointing Carly. It was her daily reminder to keep her mind focused on obtaining a name in the entertainment field instead of acting as though she already had one. The impact on Natassia's life Carly had was tremendous, continuously growing by the day.

God, had she missed this. Just to grab hold of Carly's soft palms and feel the slightly roughed fingertips graze her own skin, it always placed goose bumps across Nat's forearms; it was electric. No one had this impression on Natassia; an uncontrollable reaction when her heart bloomed at each smile Carly shot toward her, even when her blood raced when trading photos through messages. Well, that was more of Carly's idea. Occasionally, Nat would send an equally provocative image of herself in return, but more often than not, she refrained from doing so. Nat didn't want them to fall into the wrong hangs. She was already having difficulty keeping the cause of her twitches a secret; she didn't need risqué photos of herself surfacing, even if they were sent to Carly. Then again, most of her peers already knew the reason behind the senior's absences, but Natassia kept her lips sealed when it came to conversing about her life with anyone she worked with. Of course, that didn't keep her from raving about her now fiancée. It seemed whenever Natassia got onto the subject of her relationship with Carly that it was never ending. She could talk about the brunette for hours on end about the smallest of things. Mostly, she just magnified the amount of support they had for each other and vocalize the simple gratitude she had for finding someone like Carly, especially when she did. Who knew where she would be if Carly hadn't showed up in her life.

Natassia grinned herself, hearing Carly take advantage of the girl carrying her to the bed. Ah, the teasing. It had to be one of her favorite activities in their relationship besides the actual sex. Having a bit more strength than Carly, Nat used it to her advantage, often pinning the girl against something and driving her wild in some way or another. Nat took full liberties when it came to taunting the brunette whenever she could. Sometimes it caused a bit of grievance, having more than once been walked in on in varying places. Of course, the spoiled actress absolutely detested it when the tables were turned. The photos Carly messaged her? Pure torture, in Nat's mind, as she had to wait until she could act upon them. "You know patience hasn't exactly been a key virtue of mine," Nat remarked with a small laugh, pushing Carly's back against a wall, quickly resting her forehead onto Carly's. "And I should hate you... for those photos," she added, stepping away from the wall and continuing toward the bedroom. It was like Nat was holding back her words, waiting until she could safely place Carly down. Thankfully, it wasn't more than a few steps until Natassia let Carly's feet quietly reach the bedroom floor.

As for the note, Nat was certain no one's eyes, other than her own, had gazed upon it. Hell, she was confident enough to say never spoke a word of her childish dreams to her best friend, Rochelle. Even ten or so years ago, Nat was too arrogant to admit wanting to fall in love. It would change everyone's opinion of her, and, well, she liked being thought of as a bitch. She didn't need someone mocking her for being human at times with a tinge of a romantic. Natassia just knew Carly was the person she needed to share it with. Carly was supposed to know how atrocious the girl's spelling was years ago; that even with her arrogance and often incompatible personality, Nat still wanted to find someone that just fit so perfectly next to her. Hell, even if Carly was going to mock her, Nat knew it would be playful, not something that would be held over the girl's head. Handing Carly the note, Natassia held her breath as she climbed under the blankets. The anticipation for Carly's reaction only made Natassia more anxious, gripping handfuls of the sheets as she tried to read Carly's face. It was true that patience wasn't a characteristic commonly associated with the aspiring actress, but once she saw Carly smile just the slightest, her grip on the sheets loosened. A bit of embarrassment settled in, causing Nat to shy away when tried to make eye contact. And a small laugh emerged following Carly's giggling question. "Of course I have! Who do you think I am?" Nat quickly mustered up her ego long enough for the quick response. Scooting closer toward Carly, she gently rested her head on the girl's shoulder, looking down at the note. "But I've had some help, you know," she lowered her voice, quickly peering up at Carly.

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